Sometimes I sit here and wonder when I can wake up from this dream(like Neo in the Matrix, saying he could swear something is not right but could not tell what). I know I am better off than most, but I always think there is something more, something I am missing, by not being popular in school, or being a good athlete. or not been as shy and talked more to people I liked or everything else I never tried because either of fear that something bad would happen or indecision over whether I should do
(Please note: I am in no way looking for pity, I am just putting my thoughts out there so I can get them off my mind.) Some random things I have thought about while i was in the car and away from my computers this weekend. I am not any good at casting video games, mainly because I am a very socially awkward and socially shy person. I mean I can stream and not talk but what fun is that for people? When I play video games I usually sit in silence, unless I get mad then I yell and stop playing for
I got this in the mail last week and the first think I thought when I saw it was: "I did not know the Trickman had his own Christmas knicknacks magazine?! "
They send all these catalogs for Christmas stuff in October. Kinda dumb, but it lets me look through them and see what random stuff they trying to sell this year.
So I have been really busy with school stuff and have slacked off with making the vlogs. The newest one can be found here, and the full playlist of vlogs here. This is the longest vlog I have done so far. Please let me know if you like the length of this or if the shorter ones were better. Also will make a video every day during the week/weekend but will edit and upload them on the weekend, or during during the week if I have time.
I am starting to get the hang of these vlogs, not saying um, like, or also a ton as I did when I started. Also not freezing up when i want to say things. Newest vlog can be found at the end of this playlist. That playlist will have all the vlogs, so its easier to watch them in order. I know saskbob has been watching some, so if you watch my vlogs, would you be so kind as to subscribe and hit the "Like" button! Much appreciated