Sometimes I sit here and wonder when I can wake up from this dream(like Neo in the Matrix, saying he could swear something is not right but could not tell what). I know I am better off than most, but I always think there is something more, something I am missing, by not being popular in school, or being a good athlete. or not been as shy and talked more to people I liked or everything else I never tried because either of fear that something bad would happen or indecision over whether I should do ...